Title: When Choices Are Lost
Main Characters: Sayid & Shannon
Minor Characters: Ben, Nadia, & Oceanic 6
Pairings: Sayid & Nadia, Sayid & Elsa, Sayid & Shannon
Disclaimer: Lost is owned by: J.J., Damon Lindelof, Touchstone & ABC. No money being made, but after the work my co-author & beta put into this project, I’ll own them money.
Spoilers: Season 1 – 4
Note: AU (Follows Cannon until “The Economist.”)
Summary: When Choices Are Lost, What Will A Man Do To Get Them Back? (Sayid - Centric)
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Chapter 4 (Sayid POV)
Malibu Memorial Garden Cemetery ~ The Same Day
At this moment I could almost forget that Shannon’s dead. She’s been in the same position for the last hour with her head lying on my shoulder. I lost feeling in my arm some time ago but that simple feeling makes it more real.
Suddenly, she stands. "I have to go." Shannon gives me a quick kiss and before I had a chance to process what was happening, she’s gone.
"Good morning, Sayid." I hear a smug voice directly behind me. "Image me finding you here." He’s the reason Shannon left in such a hurry. If I didn’t need him to get back to the island I would kill him.
Without turning around to face him, I speak. "What are you doing here, Ben?" I see him moving in my peripheral vision and notice he has something in his hand. As he walks up to Shannon’s grave, I make out the flowers. "How dare you?" I snap around.
"I thought you were supposed to bring flowers when you visited one’s grave?" When Ben turns to face me, I’m standing in front of him. The smug smile leaves his face and I can see the fear in his eyes-for just a moment-before he puts his mask back on. "I only came to pay my respect." He walks past me and sits on the bench. "Shannon’s the reason we can go back to the island after all."
"I will only tell you once never say her name again," I tell him in a very quiet voice.
"What’s wrong, Sayid?" I can hear the fear in his voice even though his trying to hide it. "The last time I heard that voice was right before you decided to torture me." I briefly look over my shoulder at Ben. "But I am telling the truth this time." Before I turn back around I give him an eye roll that Shannon would be proud of. "She is the reason we get to go back to the island."
I'm starting to realize this is all a game to him and Widmore. I should be upset but I'm not. They need me as much as I need them. "Yes, Shannon is the reason we can return to the island and you hate that fact."
"You’re correct. I hate that your love for her is the only way for me to get back." All traces of his earlier fear are gone and replaced with anger. "I gave everything to the island-I should be able to return whenever I am ready. And I shouldn’t have been forced to wait around until you got a clue," Ben adds with a sneer.
"The fact still remains you need me to get back," I turn to face Ben once again, "And whether we like each other or not, we have to work together to accomplish our goal."
We stand there completely quiet for a few minutes. "You’re right," I think we finally understand each other. "You have to find everyone before Widmore does, thanks to your little stunt." I laugh at the fact shooting someone is consider a stunt now. "We have to get back to the island on our terms, not his. He can’t be trusted and now, thanks to you, Sayid, he’s out for blood and we still need him to find Desmond."
I ignore his comments about Widmore, "Sun will be here in a week and we’ll meet with Jack and Kate then and Hurley’s still in Santa Rosa Mental Health Institute."
"That’s good that you know where everyone is but if you can find them that easy so can he. It won’t be safe for the six of you to stay together here in California. You’re going to need to find a safe house somewhere until every thing’s ready."
Even with the threat of Charles Widmore hanging over me, I don’t regret what I did. He deserved it. "How long do we have?"
"You have two weeks to find everyone and get them to the safe house. Once everyone’s there I’ll make the call to Widmore. He’ll have one week to meet us." I wonder if a week is enough time. "It’s now or never and he knows that Sayid. He’ll make it in time." Ben answered my silent question. "It’s been fun." He stands and starts to walk through the grave yard.
I know this will be the last time I’ll ever get to come here. I take the flowers Ben put on her grave an place them on Boone’s grave. The next time I visit her grave I’ll be back on the island. "Goodbye Shannon, Ana Behibek."
Lake Havasu City, AZ (CA/AZ Boarder) London Bridge ~ A Week Later
We decided to meet Jack and Kate in a place where no one would think to look for us. We didn’t have a lot of time so Sun picked a random place on the map that would be still be close to California.
She thought this place was interesting because they had a London Bridge. We later found out "The London Bridge" was built in 1831 over the River Thames in London and was purchased by Robert P. McCulloch in 1968. Over the next several years McCulloch had the bridge dismantle, move and reconstruct Lake Havasu City.
"Do you think they’ll show Sayid?" Sun asks.
I’ve been asking myself that for the last 15 minutes. "If they don’t show today we’ll have to find them before Widmore does." We stand there quietly for a few more minutes before we hear raised voices behind us.
We turn and see Jack and Kate walking towards us yelling. "Jack! What are you doing here?" Several people around them have stop to look.
"I could ask you the same question Kate!" Jack notice that there drawing attention to them and lowers his voice. "Sayid told me he needed to see me. Trust me I didn’t know you were going to be here." They still hadn’t notice Sun and me yet.
"Sun called me and said she was coming to American and she really needed to talk to me. She wouldn’t tell me what it was about or why we had to meet here." They finally stop talking and look up to see us.
Kate walks over gives us both a hug. "I’m so happy to see both of you it’s been so long." Jack stays a step or two behind Kate. Looking at Jack I wonder what has happened to him. He looks as though he hasn’t shaved since we left the island and I can smell the alcohol coming off him in waves.
He barely looks at me and refuses to look at Sun. "Sayid."
"Hello, Jack." Since Jack first noticed Sun and me his whole disposition has changed.
"Will you not speak to me, Jack?" Sun asks angrily.
He speaks to Sun but never looks her in the eyes. "Hello, Sun." I still wonder why people thought he was such a great leader.
"With the pleasantries out of the way, why did you guys need to see us?" Kate asks looking as though she rather be anywhere then standing here with Jack. I wonder what happened between them.
We decided Sun should be the one to open the conversation maybe they might receive the news better from her. "We have to go back." Sun says a voice that holds no argument.
They both answer at the same time. "No, I’m not going back!" Kate says looking as though she ready to run. "Yes, it’s about time someone realizes that." Jack says practically crying. It doesn’t even shock me this time when they know what we’re talking about.
Sun and I look at each other in shock. This was not the response we were expecting. Jack’s crying when he starts to talk. "We have to go back. We shouldn’t have ever left. When ever I close my eyes I see all their faces and hear their voices." Before I could stop him, Jack has Sun in a crushing hug. "Oh God, I’m so sorry Sun. It should have been me to die on that freighter." People are starting to stare again.
"Jack, stop!" Kate’s yelling is drawing more attention.
"I forgive you Jack." Sun tells Jack and he starts to quiet down. He lets Sun go and she gives him some tissues from her purse.
Jack’s much calmer now. "I’m really sorry you guys. You just don’t understand what a relief this is for me. I know in my heart we have to go back." Now we just have to convince Kate. We all turn at the same time to look at her.
She’s shaking her head no before we say anything. "Jack’s been trying to convince me to help him find the island for the last six months. I’m never going back and there nothing you can say to me to change my mind." We should have meant them separately maybe Kate would have been more willing to listen. "You have Jack, you don’t need me. Just leave my son and me alone." With that she starts walking away.
"Your son!" Sun snaps at Kate. Kate turns to face Sun and before she can even say anything Sun’s talking. "Let’s not forget that Claire is Aaron’s mother not you."
"I know that Sun and I think about it every day. But it’s my job to protect him now and I’m not going back."
I speak before Sun can. "If you want to protect Aaron you’ll stay and listen to what we have to say." Kate looks worried now. "You and Aaron can come back to the island with us or go back with Charles Wildmore." I knew this would sound harsh but it was the truth. "And trust me he doesn’t care which way you go back."
Jack asks. "What are you talking about, Sayid?"
"Ben and Widmore both want back on that island and for some reason they need us all to get back." Sun looks over at me she knows I’m leaving some things out. "If Widmore hasn’t already soon he will start searching for us. The only way to find the island now is for the six off us to be together. And he doesn’t care what he has to do to get us either. So, whether you want to go back or not, Kate, you really don’t have a choice."
I think Jack’s hope is that going back will make all the guilt go away. "When do we go back Sayid?" At least Jack’s convinced.
"Once were all together at the safe house…"
Kate cuts me off. "People searching for us? Safe houses? You expect me to put my child in the middle of all of this?"
Surprisingly, Jack answers her before I can. "Did you not hear what Sayid just said, Kate? Look at everything Widmore has done so far to get to the island..."
"As I was saying once were all together at the safe house, Ben will contact Widmore and let him know he has a week to meet us."
"Okay, I’ll go." I think Kate’s finally realizing how much danger we’re really in. "Have you already convinced Hurley?"
I think I’ll make that trip on my own. "I will go to get Hurley once the four of you have left for the safe house." Sun looks at me surprised.
"I don’t think it would be a good idea to leave the two of them alone for to long." I say quietly so only Sun can hear me and already there fussing again. "Listen, we don’t have time for the fussing. Our lives are in danger. Could you please just put your difference aside?" Neither answer me question verbally they just shake their heads in agreement.
"You have two days to get everything you need and we’ll meet at Kate’s home so we can help with Aaron. The safe house is in Hawaii but the rest of our journey will be in a very cold climate."
"We’ll be ready." Jack says as he and Kate start to walk away.
"Sayid, we have been very lucky so far, I fear things will change soon." Sun put my fear into words.
TBC…………………………Lost Music Here